Thursday, January 30, 2014

Saying GoodBye

Family picture from October 2013
I don't even know where to begin since I had no idea I'd be needing to say all this so soon. I know my talk of Morgan's cancer has been minimal so here is a brief overview:

  • Early August 2013: He began limping on his rear right leg, vet thought maybe ACL injury
  • Late August: Stopped walking on right rear leg
  • Early September: Xrays showed a large tumor in his femur (osteosarcoma)
  • Sept 23rd: Met with oncologist at University and scheduled for biopsy and drug study
  • Sept 25th: Amputation (Due to the extent of tumor his bone was shattered so we pushed ahead quick and bypassed the study)
  • October 16th-Dec 11th: IV chemo every 3 weeks until Dec 11th when his lungs showed tumor growth meaning chemo was not working.
  • December 11th: Started oral chemo 3x week in hopes of slowing tumor growth
  • January 21st: Started seeing limping in front left leg
  • January 29th: Follow up with oncologist to look at leg and lungs to assess how oral chemo was working. Worst case we expected another leg tumor. Never expected what we heard...

The oncologist walked in, opened the Xrays and I could see it from across the room: an enlarged heart and bilateral pneumothorax (lung collapse). In a person I'd throw in a tube to release the air but Morgan's was due to tumor rupturing and would never repair. We heard the worst, he'd likely suffocate and stop breathing soon. This was it, time to say good bye. We knew it was coming but not this abruptly. We headed home to have time and let O say goodbye. I started to see that Morgan wasn't himself anymore and his breathing was worsening. We decided to meet with our own vet, which perked Morgan up. He loved them and they all loved him (he had recently spent 12 days there while we were on vacation). His quirky personality was unforgettable. And now the tears are flowing again. We have are great memories and pictures and will never forget our wonderful 8 years with you. I honestly can't even write more without losing it completely, but the memories are never ending. Now to figure out the best way to help a 4 year old through this too.

Ironically this was taken the day he was diagnosed and I found it on my phone yesterday

We love you Morgan, you fought hard!

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Happy 4th Birthday

4 years ago I began my crazy adventure called motherhood! I should have known what life would bring when you entered the world on your own time (8 days late!). You were calmly born, no tears or drama, just looking around and soaking in the craziness around you. That soon changed! Your determination and inquisitive mind have made you very independent and often dramatic!

You have taught me what truly is important in life and to enjoy the little things. Every day you surprise me with your questions and knowledge you have gained. You want to be just like us: running, studying and cooking. You are a strong girl and set on being your own person. As tough as things are some days I love you and the person you are becoming. I may be in the minority here, but I do not miss the infant days, I love that we can talk and have fun together. Your mind, spirit and determination will truly make you a success in life! As tough as these are on mommy and daddy now, it will only benefit you in life!

We love you baby girl (yes, you are always my baby)...Happy Birthday O!

Monday, January 27, 2014

Deep Breath

Can I just take a minute to complain? I'm usually not the one to full out talk about how much things suck but right now they kind of do! I mean really, we're all sick again, O isn't sleeping meaning no one is sleeping, Morgan is having issues with his back leg (the only one he has left) and we meet with the oncologist on Wednesday. We had to stop chemo after 3 rounds due to metastasis to his lungs :( so he's on 3x weekly oral chem in hopes of slowing the growth. He just hit his 4 month ampuversary and that part is going well except when he forgets and tries to lift a freezing foot off the ground! Top this all off with brutal cold and gusting winds making it blizzard like outside and I'm have no outlet!
3 legs doesn't stop him!
Running on the treadmill just doesn't have the same stress relief factor. Anyone else agree? I mean there is nothing better than being outside, it is peaceful and you can think but staring at the wall or TV or person in front of you just doesn't allow your mind to go!
Run it off!!

Okay, Deep Breath...

Time to look at the positive things; my baby turns 4 tomorrow and I can't wait to see the look on her face during her party (that is hopefully warm enough to be outside), I got to bake this weekend experimenting with cupcake and frosting recipes, the frosting failed but cupcakes, yum! Anyone have a good vegan frosting recipe that is healthy (low sugar) and without weird ingredients? I spent yesterday doing weekly meal prep and made another successful meal: baked eggplant marinara.

And as a runner the best part is after a moment of panic earlier this week when I ran Thursday causing hamstring pain, I think I am better! I saw my sports chiro Friday for an aggressive session of Graston, ultrasound and acupuncture and one very bruised leg later I ran with only a little tightness! I can still say that 24 hours later I feel decent, the pan is 2 weeks of aggressive treatment with easier running then 10 weeks of hardcore Boston training!

Thursday, January 23, 2014

I am back!

Vacation is over (so is vacation relaxation and eating mode)! I'm still in the midst of catching up from 11 days away from email, work, life, etc. but am on my way to "normal".  After 4 days of running (more on that later), little sleep and theme parks we spent a week relaxing on a cruise. Along with that went wine and lots of great food, thank you Royal Caribbean for making so many wonderful gluten free options! It was wonderful to travel for the first time in years and not worry abot the safety of the food! When I asked what was gluten free, I was given many options and told with advance notice they would adapt almost anything on the menu. I think I ate more bread last week than I have in years. I did manage a workout most days but nothing to make up for the eating. It was a great relaxing, refueling week after running Dopey!

Now we are back, refrigerator is fully stocked with healthy food again and I am less than 3 months from Boston Marathon, so time to get serious! So far so good on my return...2 early morning workouts so far and even 1 double! Runs have been short, I think I am in the what if mode. I need my leg to be good but am afraid it won't be. Plus after 11 days of 70+ degrees here I sit at home with wind chills of -40F!! Only option lately is the treadmill. Now to find the motivation to get there. What are your tricks to get back to healthy eating/fitness after time off?

O's frog cupcake!

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Dopey Fun

Sorry no time to write but we are done!! Well worth the challenge, more later...

Friday, January 10, 2014

Minnie 10K...2 down and 2 to go

Hot and humid out there today, yikes! Not much to say except an easy 50:30 10K and hoping legs stay loose. So here's some fun pictures...

Off to find coffee then spend the day in Magic Kingdom.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Disney 5K...1 down 3 to go

Ok, here's my first attempt at blogging from iPad so this will be short...Today was the start of Dopey Challenge with an early 5K. My goal to run easy was not difficult with the crowds. Despite being in Corral A I was passing walkers right away, ugh! I was thrilled to be running in weather above 0! 60 degrees at the start and dark thanks to a 6:15am start. The course wound through Epcot and I enjoyed just soaking in the atmosphere while telling myself to take it easy. 

No clue on official time yet, but around 23:30 so I did decent on the easy run. Grabbed my medal and Dopey wrist band. I was thrilled that Disney had thought about us gluten free runners (okay maybe coincidence) by having all race food gluten free! I was thrilled since all too frequently I am lucky if I can eat a bag of chips. 

Legs were a little tight so on the rolling and stretching while I enjoy my coffee before on to race 2 tomorrow...

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

I'm a writer!

Last fall I received an email out of no where from someone I never thought I'd get emails from...Runner's World! My first thought, is this legit? Sure enough it was. They were searching a RRCA run coach's advice on winter speed work for a reader question. My answer was published this month!! I was thrilled to see the article when I friends sent it to me, now if only my copy would arrive in the mail Wonder if I can convince them to make me a regular contributor?

Now back to packing and the ritual obsessing that I am forgetting everything! Am I the only one who stresses while packing for a trip? Don't worry I'll keep everyone updated on Dopey, make sure to follow my Facebook and that will get the first updates!

But first the winners of 13 in 2013 wrap up:
Denise - Active Accessories
Nikki - Allied Medal Display
Madelyn - Race Day Books

And my Pro Compression giveaway:
Ashley @ashbroccoli

Friday, January 3, 2014

Friday Thoughts: PB Cake & a Giveaway

This post is going to match my mind lately as it races from thing to thing… I’m sitting here post-holiday craziness, on the verge of vacation and ready to go!

PB2 1LB Jar
Bell Plantation
Peanut Butter Single Serve Cake (Gluten Free)
2 tbsp PB2
1 tsbp water
1 tbsp Almond milk
2 tbsp applesauce
½ tsp baking powder
2 tbsp coconut flour
1 tbsp raisins or choc chips

Mix all together and microwave bowl and cook for 2 minutes. And guess what I got so excited after I mixed it up, I never even took a picture of my yummy creation! Any fun snacks you’ve been eating lately?

So what else is going through my mind today…This weather sucks and I continue to stalk the forecast for Dopey! Guess what we get on Monday, -50 wind chills!! I thought last weekend was bad, yikes! I can’t wait to be in sun and warmth, I see people complaining about running in upper 70s but I figure I’m not racing so I plan to have fun, enjoy the weather and be happy being warm!

Now on top of this we are all sick, I think my biggest workout lately has been the core work from coughing constantly! And sleep, well that’s pretty much impossible right now with all the coughing in our house. Because of all this I skipped my first run of 2014 and opted to run my miles inside on the warm treadmill where my lungs wouldn’t freeze. Nothing fun about running in -20 wind chill, I think I may rethink registering for winter races ahead of time next year.

Now for some non-complaining news…a giveaway to kick off 2014! I rave about my love of ProCompression frequently but now I get to share with you. Not only are they great for leg fatigue during long runs and speeding recovery but they help keep my feet warmer in winter. I can be found wearing the brightest option possible out there. I was thrilled when they started making arm sleeves too this year, perfect for those chillier days and winter to keep hands warmers.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

2014 My Come Back Year!!

January 1st 2014, time to look back at the last year and see how I did on my goals, without even looking I can tell you not so great. It was a tough year both in running and life. 2013 began by me walking away from a job that was making me very unhappy and staying home, finishing school, over training leading to injury after injury and poor racing but it ended with a new job I enjoy, new running friends, almost overcoming injury and discovering more about me. I’m happy to say many of my goals are now crossed off!!

Fitness Goals
  • Sub 3:30 marathon (okay actually 3:15 is what I really want)- Nope, 3:31
  • sub 1:30 half marathon- Nope, Never really raced a half healthy
  • 1:08 10 Mile- Nope, 1:13
  • sub 43:00 10K- Nope, 44:20 still a PR!!
  • sub 20:00 5K,- Nope, 21:00
  • Run 13 Half/Full Marathons Yes!!
  • Complete a Triathlon (meaning I need to swim!) Swam x6 but no triathlon
  • Run 2500 Miles 2576.5 miles
  • Give yoga a try 30 Day Yoga Challenge completed February 15th

Life Goals
  • Organize the house 1 room at a time Starting over!!
  • Figure out what will make me happy in life and find it! I think I’m on the right path
  • Think about what is important in my life and embrace it More focus on family and friends
  • Continue to grow my blog and write about topics important to me and other fitness parents New job got in the way this fall but I will be back
  • Figure out how to incorporate my new NASM CPT into my career Wrote and coached on the side
  • Read What’s that?!

  • Look at exactly what I am eating and improve Started tracking Sept 1st but didn’t last!
  • Read nutrition books: Nope
  • Limit processed foods: Working on this!
  • No more diet pop! None since January 19th March 4th June 10th
  • Experiment with more recipes Doing great

  • Start Pre-School with kiddo She loves it!
  • Monthly dates with hubby So far good!
  • Make friends a priority as life gets busy: coffee, runs, etc So far good!
  • Plan a fun 3rd birthday party A birthday week!
  • Limit computer time in evenings Improving with school done!

So what do I have in store for 2014? I am labeling this my “Come Back Year” where I will continue to grow even stronger, run even faster, eat even healthier and work on being a better person overall! Marathon Monday will return starting next week so make sure to join me to stay accountable for your weekly training (of any distance) and share ideas on new and fun workouts.

Fitness Goals (many of these will look familiar)
  • Sub 3:30 marathon (okay actually 3:15 is what I really want)
  • sub 1:30 half marathon
  • 1:08 10 MIle
  • sub 43:00 10K
  • sub 20:00 5K
  • Run 2550 miles
  • Stay injury free!!
  • Try something new each month fitness related Any suugestions?
  • Focus on goal races and no more running to run, this is why I am already skipping my 1st race of 2014, bad roads, cold temps and not feeling 100% still.

Life Goals
  • Organize the house and prepare to move, get rid of things we don’t need
  • Focus my blog on what is important to me
  • Read fun books Any suggestions?

  • No more dairy while marathon training
  • Limit processed foods and focus on whole foods
  • Plan meals weekly and prep ahead

  • Monthly (or more) dates with O
  • Listen to O and learn from her to be a better mom
  • Monthly dates with hubby
  • Make friends a priority as life gets busy: coffee, runs, etc.
  • Start thinking of kindergarten, yikes!

What did you accomplish in 2013 and what are your 2014 goals?